What am I worth?

Tuesday, September 16, 2008

 

What am I worth? Have you ever asked yourself how much you are really worth? If so do you compare yourself with money, objects, or time? Ever thought about comparing love, compassion, honesty, and even happiness? How much of these things am I really worth?  I have lately asked myself this because I am not quite sure. I don't know how much I need to give in order to receive the amount of emotional nourishment I need to strive on. I feel all I can do is try my best to give my all in hopes to obtain enough joy and truth to live a happy successful life.  Ever stopped to think if you were living the life you were really meant to live? This question I also stumble over…A LOT lately. I sit here contemplating what is my purpose here on earth? What the duties are that I am supposed to fulfill? Who am I supposed to be? I guess you could just say I am in an identity crisis and am still in the process of finding answers, but in all honesty will answers to these questions ever come in full? I am starting to think not.  I think I can serve others, help those in need, be a friend to everyone, give a smile and brighten someone's day, be a good student, have a career, support and love my family, and be on call for those who need me 24 hours a day 7 days a week, and find happiness and a heart filled with joy by doing all of the above. I am the happiest when those I love are happy. Though at times it is hard to find happiness when those you love are happier when they are not with you, but on the bright side there are many other things in the world I can try to overcompensate for that.  Time is a magical thing as well as a tormenting thing. I like to be optimistic and just say "It'll all get better in time" and I really have faith it will. Doesn't mean there won't be a scar there when it does get better, but the pain will be lightened and a lot more bearable. I have not found a pain more excruciating than the loss of someone who holds a strong place in my heart. Lately I have felt that I have lost too many of those and am left with empty spaces. Whether it is death, change of heart, or just my stupidity, I've felt the pain of those places in my heart becoming hollow.  I wish to tell all those who are so dear to me that I love them and am so grateful for all they do for me! I wouldn't be here without them. I owe so much to those who have crossed my path and feel there is nothing worthy enough that I could give or do to repay them.  To those in my situation…just think of yourself as priceless and then you don't have to bother wondering what you are worth. Be grateful for what you have because I'm sure there is someone somewhere that doesn't have it. It's really not about that anyway is it? Just be happy giving and soon enough you will receive. At least that is what I try to keep telling myself…

It is what it is

It is what it is

As I lay on my bed sifting through the thoughts that consume my mind

I hear the sound of rain tapping the side walk outside my window.

The thoughts recall situations of my past and how they have made my future.

The water hitting the ground enlightens me.

Things may not always be convenient,

But they happen for a reason.

 I know I have been where I’ve been and done what I’ve done,

All in preparation for where I am going and what I will become.

As a nomad I have learned the value of family and appreciation of my environment.

Furthering my education has taught me discipline and motivation.

Employment helped me realize the importance of team work and diligence.

Relationships gave me an understanding of those I want in my life.

My thoughts on love have been sharpened to a greater understanding.

As I lay on my bed sifting the thoughts that consume my mind

I know I am where I am supposed to be.

I have a job I enjoy which treats me well.

I have the love of an exquisite girl who I am devoted to.

I am happy and full of optimism for my future.

I know I have been where I’ve been and done what I’ve done,

All in preparation for where I am going and what I will become. 

Kerri Rogers

6/1/10

Friendship

Friendship

Being a friend is showing that you care.

Being a friend is doing more than you dare.

A true friend picks up those who are down.

A true friend will always be around.

A friend would never push or pressure.

A friend would show respect beyond measure.

Friends who are FRIENDS will indubitably know

Friendship with love will grow and grow.

Show your love to those around you,

So that you may gain a friend or two.

Friendship never ceases with just one friend,

Keep the love circling so it will never end!

By: Kerri Rogers

Food For Thought!

Food For Thought!

So have you ever thought about the things that make you so happy, then realized you don't do those things often enough? Kind of ironic yeah?
I have recently come to the surface with this and wondered why in the world would I not exercise so much when I get the best feeling of satisfaction, lose weight, get toned, and get the best sleep ever!
Why would I not want to be ambitious and be early or at least ON TIME to work every day? I mean yeah I have the most boring job in the world...or just the most boring job I personally have ever had, but it is still personal satisfaction when you are recognized as punctual and dedicated to what you are doing.
This one hits me hard...why do I rush through life in a hurry like I'm running a race? I need to stop and breath and while I am breathing notice my surroundings. What beauty God has put me in the middle of! The inventive scenery, amazing people, and smells of the seasons-what could possibly be any better?
Do I tell my family and those that I love how much they really mean to me often enough? Never enough! I need to take the time to express my appreciation!
Do I take "Kerri" time often enough to keep me sane and healthy? I know just a night at home with a bath, writing, and enjoying the peace and tranquility that i deserve would do the body good!
Could I make time to call old friends and reminisce? Of course! Who doesn't love laughing about the stupid crap you did when you were immature and naive? I know I just love to recall those times...wait am I still in that zone?? haha
Do I stop and help others as often as I could? Not near enough! Service is a marvelous thing! Karma will come back to bite you if you ignore the opportunities to help those in need!
Also we all know how great it feels to receive complements from others, even as simple as your hair looks great today, I like your outfit, or a smile to brighten the day. I feel just as good giving these compliments and reassuring others that they are noticed and worthwhile. Every smile makes your day a little brighter, so do those things that make you smile and make others smile so you can share the wealth!
This is just some food for thought that has been sitting on my plate for a while and I finally got the nerve to taste it and it was delicious! I just hope I didn't wait too long and get food poisoning!

THINK ABOUT IT!! :) 

A Good Thing

A Good Thing

I knew a good thing when I saw it,

I knew a good thing when I heard it,

I knew a good thing when I smelt it,

And I knew a good thing when I held it.

This good thing I speak of changed my life for good.

A fight and struggle I've had for so long, finally understood.

I can now live for me and not pretend for others,

The truth is out, all lies uncovered.

What a relief, what a relief, oh my hell what a relief!

No regrets, no lies, no grief!

I know a good thing when I see it,

I know a good thing when I hear it,

I know a good thing when I smell it,

And I know a good thing when I hold it.

There are no words worthy enough to describe you.

People with such qualities who cross my path are very few.

Just the thought of you brings a smile to my face and warmth in my heart.

The love I feel makes me hope we'll never part.

When we're together I see no one else around,

It's like a different world where only love and happiness is found.

I love it when I see you,

I love it when I hear you,

I love it when I smell you,

And I love it when I hold you.

To put it simple…

I JUST LOVE YOU!!

Kerri Rogers

9/14/08

Beautiful Imperfection

Beautiful Imperfection

With petals crinkled and leaves strayed

It stands alone, but not dismayed.

With colors dim, which once was bright

Still it captures remarkable light.

A decorative addition or memories kept

Presented with love and not to forget

The meaning of what it once meant,

The reason it was given or sent.

This beautiful imperfection I’m inspired to be.

No matter my flaws, I can be loved for me.

One who gives joy and love to others

In various meanings and bright colors.

Even when I am aged and dull

I still serve a purpose dry and all.

Kerri Rogers

11/28/1020 

Defying Gravity

Defying Gravity

Is it not enough to let go of someone, but then to tell a lie?

Feelings were dampened, a slow and painful drowning.

To bring the sorrow to a float is to believe and let dry.

Indulging in the strength to overcome

Was the feeling of ice, only to leave me numb.

 Time and realization opened my eyes,

It was me, not enough, not worth the fight.

But to dwell on those who will not fight for a prize they had won

Is useless, a waste of time, and compels me to be numb.

I will regain the strength to fight for myself and conquer my independence.

To love another who disregards all the efforts feels as if I never made a difference.

The time will come when I am of worth to one who mirrors my intentions.

Oh to share the feelings of mutual love and affection.

I am strong, the lies I do not believe,

For I know who I am and I will not be deceived.

My cup is empty only to have yours overflowing,

There is satisfaction from the thirst just to see you glowing.

Friends we are and friends we will be,

I want you to be more than just a memory.

Laughs and tears I’m sure will continue

Fights and disputes, they’ll be so few.

It’s true that people come into your life for a reason,

I learn and grow from each and wouldn’t trade them for anything!

Kerri Rogers   07/20/2009